Less than an hour

The New Grad Student, EART205 camping trip begins today. I don't want to go! Cold. Sleeping on the ground. Cold. Uncomfortable. Cold.

Maybe it will be fun... Sigh.

Awesome

Went to the bonfire. Had an awesome time. So glad I went. Not only did I have the awesome time I was just mentioning, but everybody was there (of the new grads) and if I hadn't gone I'd be the only one that didn't go. How sucky would that be? I'd be labelled as the anti-social one. And even if that is the case, it'd suck for them to find out so early!

Anyway, yeah. A great time. Yay for being social.

Pessimistic, but still having a good time

Haven't posted in a while. Things are going pretty well. I get along great with my roommates. I hang out quite a bit with Colleen, who's super cool. Not that the others aren't, we just don't seem to hang out as much.

School... well, it worries me a bit. Classes haven't really started yet. I had one math class. The homework looks really yucky. I just feel like I'm not qualified to be here and that it's only a matter of time before people start to realize it. I think I'm not the only one that feels this way, but I don't know for sure. It gets me down every once in a while. Moments like these make me want to quit school and go... somewhere else. But I'm even more afraid of having no plan, than I am of having a plan that I'm not sure about.

I have an office, which is pretty cool. Have been there to do reading, but that's about it.

Leaving for a camping trip on Friday. Am not very excited about it. In fact, I have no real desire to go. There's also a bonfire thing happening tonight - don't really feel like I want to go to that either. Am being pretty anti-social. I will probably go, just don't want to.

Oh, and verizon doesn't work on campus. Can't even use my cell phone. Totally unhappy about that. Don't want to cancel though - deactivation fee. But then I feel really dumb paying for phone service I can't even use. Lame.

I am still having a good time though. Thursday was fun. Went with Colleen downtown. We ended up having dinner with one of her friends, Brian, and then hanging out. Had a fantastic time. Laughing and joking around while sitting in a candy store/ice cream place. Today was also good. Went to Capitola's downtown area. Walked around. Got food. Ate ice cream. Yummy.

Yep. That's my life.

A bit bizarre

Okay, so I know I'm a bit weird, and here's more proof of that for anyone trying to compile a list... And I suppose if anyone is I suppose that person is just a bit weird themselves. Anyway, I was driving to Office Max today to buy some supplies when I started to think of something I had learned in Biogeography... that certain plants flower only when exposed to a certain amount of daylight and how that can pose problems for people trying to grow plants native to one latitude in another.

Don't ask me why I was thinking about it, because I don't honestly know. But anyway, I couldn't for the life of my figure out the term to describe such plants - all I could come up with was the photo- part of it. So here's the rest and the proper definition for anyone interested (not that I expect anyone will be...)

photoperiodism: flowering in many plant species triggered by a response to a particular day length

Your new word of the day. You're welcome. :-D

A lot has happened

First off - went to spend the weekend with Angie. Had a magnificient time. Went and saw Little Miss Sunshine, the most awesome movie ever! Totally hilarious, but not in a ridiculous way. I would suggest it to anybody looking for a laugh, or really anyone at all. We also went to Tilden park and explored a bit. And did a bunch of other fun things. Angie is the best hostess. :-D

Monday went and saw another movie with Julia - The Covenant, which was basically eye candy (for both girls and guys) and special effects. But good, if you aren't really expecting an oscar worthy movie. Or that was my take anyway.

And now I'm at UCSC. Have moved into my apartment. Things are mainly in order. Bought my parking permit, figured out that my financial aid finally went through, and unpacked and all that stuff. My roommates are super nice. Both of them offered to help me bring in stuff from my car - I declined, but very sweet of them to offer. We ended up chatting for a couple hours in the evening, and then later we went and got frozen yogurt! Yay for that.

I have a meeting with Jim at 1:30 to talk about what classes I should be taking this quarter and that kind of stuff. It will be good to have all that stuff sorted out. Hope I can also figure out how to enroll in the classes! Have not been able to successfully enroll for classes other than my graduate ones because it says I don't meet the pre-reqs. Hahaha.

Um... that's about it... Have seen a few deer since being on campus.

Yep.

What the... ?

Hahaha... don't even ask about the title. Sometimes I have a hard time thinking of one, as people have probably noticed whenever they read my blog.

Not much going on. Am really excited about the next few days, not so much for those that follow! Anywho, tomorrow I might be going to see a stupid movie with Julia, then I'm for sure driving to Berkeley to hang out with Angie (!yay!), and then I'll be staying at her place Friday night, hanging out Saturday, and then I'm not really sure about the rest of the weekend.

After that though... I'm supposed to be moving to Santa Cruz on Monday. Am happy to finally be getting out of my parent's house, but not all that enthusiastic about actually being at school and then starting school. Have sent a couple emails to Jim about meeting with him to discuss potential classes for this coming quarter - he only replied to the first and didn't really say anything about meeting with me. And paranoid me has been worried about it ever since. Haven't ever been sure about graduate school, and now that it's actually here that hasn't changed at all. If anything I'm getting more unhappy about it. I'm not sure if it's one of those things where I'm unhappy now but will be super glad I did it later, or one of those times where I continue to be unhappy and wonder why I didn't back out sooner to save myself some grief.

Everybody else's expectations of me seem to be quite higher than those I have for myself. And anytime I try to talk to anyone about how yucky I'm thinking school will be they brush it off... Sigh. What the hell? I guess maybe that title was appropriate after all. What am I doing with my life and why?

Worried?

I am a hopeless worrier. I worry about all kinds of things, all the time. I don't know if other people can tell this about me or not. I have no idea if people ever think, wow she just needs to calm down. But I do. I worry about what other people think of me, I worry that other people don't think of me, I worry about what life is going to be like when I'm a "grown-up", I worry that maybe I am a grown-up already and that this is what life is going to be like for forever, I worry about my family, I worry...

And I'm more worried than usual right now... School is starting soon. And I don't really know anyone there, and I have to move in and set everything up, and talk to Jim about classes and... so much. Yikes. Although, I did really enjoy myself when Julia and I went on Friday. Nice drive. Nice weather. Beautiful campus. We'll see how things go.